Creating Daily Joy

Creating Daily Joy

Creating Daily Joy


Being human is hard.  Let’s face it.  No one really knows what to do.  We all just do our best.  And when we find something that gives life more meaning, love and joy, we have the ability to choose to do more of whatever that is.  We have free will.

In addition to free will, we also come equipped with automatic, hardwired worrying capacity.  And if you are like me, this was set on “go full blast” since very early childhood.

I have naturally always looked for the hidden or not so hidden dangers/threats, and ONLY after that is accounted for, then I MAY find some space for feeling relief and the good stuff.  Not a great system!

But lately, something is shifting for me.  I am experimenting with conscious deliberate focus on the myriad of “little” things that give me relief/joy/pleasure/comfort/fun/inspiration throughout my day.

I think that I have always felt that the “fun” stuff was a sort of reward for dealing with the crap…and only if there was room for it.  I now know this is backwards thinking.

Now, I believe that I can be better at what I do, in every way, when my main focus is not on the future, and getting ahead, and forcing my way through the things that do not give me joy.  My life opens up in unexpected ways when the majority of my focus is on my joy.

Joy is different for all of us.  What I may find joyful, others may find silly or boring.  Who cares?!?!  What I have come to realize, again and again, is that comparing myself to anyone else is emotionally damaging and only leads to more worry…and therefore, less joy.

When I focus on the quest for more and more, I am left with less and less energy and motivation.  However, when I focus on the little, “freelicious”, simple things in my life, I am reenergized and inspired.  I become increasingly satisfied with “enough” as opposed to “more”.

This all really boils down to living in a more constant state of appreciation.  When you can appreciate what you have, you open up to more possibilities and magic.

And ultimately, you just feel better.

For those that want to kick it up another notch, share your appreciation for others out loud.  Our lovely landlord always manages to let us know that he appreciates us, and I let him know how much we appreciate him.  It raises the vibration and feels wonderful.  It is amazingly refreshing to hear, out loud, when others appreciate us.  I think too many of us assume that they know how we feel, but you know what they say about assuming!

I will end this thought with saying that I appreciate you for taking the time to read this and consider this idea.

Everything is a Mirror

Everything is a Mirror

Everything and everyone is a mirror for each of us. I truly believe this and find it to be liberating. You may wonder how seeing the atrocities of our planet could be helpful in any way on a personal growth level. Well, if we interpret something as bad or ugly or unfair, etc., it is really an invitation to see what it is triggering in ourselves.

You may be saying “Huh? How so?”

I’m glad you asked! Whenever we have a symptom of any kind, it is an opportunity for healing, growth and expansion. And being affected by something unpleasant that you observe could fall into this category as well.

“I still don’t get it, Colleen. Could you be more specific?”

Ok, ok…keep your pants on. I’m getting there. Sheesh!

For example: This morning, the day after the election, I woke up several times in a panic regarding the loss of Proposition 37. This is the one about labeling foods that contain GMOs. I felt like I was trapped in a country of complete idiots in which major decisions regarding our health and rights as humans are being determined by the least awake people, who, as far as I can tell, are the vast majority of our population. This was frightening to me on a very deep level. And when I needed to get up and start my day, I felt almost paralyzed.

Now, I have a pretty big “tool bag” of ways to deal with upset, but felt this so deeply that I couldn’t see it clearly for a while. But finally I asked myself…what is the lesson here? How is this a mirror for me?

I realized that it triggered energy in me of feeling hopeless…and helpless…and tremendous anger. I lost my power. What I mean by this is that this is not only about this election loss. These old feelings were simply triggered by this unpleasant, unwanted outcome. This is old emotional energy that is trapped in my being that is revealing itself because of this trigger. And this is my opportunity to look at these old feelings and release them from my body.

We, in each of our bodies, are microcosms of what is happening in the world. In other words, what is happening in me is being projected out into the world. Or, what is happening in the world is being reflected back to me…and to you.

“But Colleen, you must be mistaken. I’m not at war. I am not starving. I am not torturing the innocent. I do yoga for God’s sake!”

Ok…but how are you at war with yourself? Are you kind to yourself and your “imperfections”? Are you completely at peace with your family and community? Are you starving for something you desperately need, such as love, self acceptance, really being seen for who you are in all of your glory? Are you not torturing yourself about something from your past?

It is all inside us.

I find myself so enraged about this proposition not passing because I feel that it will possibly allow more poisons to enter my body through my food source. But I need to ask myself…how am I allowing this already? I’ll admit, I am not pristine about taking care of myself at all times. I sometime make the conscious choice to dishonor my body by putting crap into it.

As Gandhi said…”Be the change you wish to see in the world.” These are simple, yet profound, words. If I want to see more peace, I need to find it in myself. If I want to see more love, I need to find it in myself. Healing the world is really an inside job and is the responsibility of each and every one of us. If we leave this to our government…um….I’m not even going to finish that sentence. It is up to us. Personal responsibility.

When you start to see your part in everything, you can do something about it and shift it in yourself. If you spend your life blaming everyone else and take no responsibility, you will remain unhappy and powerless.

So, back to me…after reminding myself of this, I feel lighter and much more at peace about this proposition not passing. I’m not saying I give up on the issue; I’m just saying that I can see the beauty in it, as well, regarding my personal growth and healing. I can now consider this from a place of power and clarity rather that utter despair and hopelessness. Ah….

My challenge to you is to observe and consider what the world is reflecting back to you. Can you take responsibility for your part in it? I hope so, not only for your own healing and well being, but for the benefit of all of us.




I am really fortunate…don’t get me wrong, I know it. I live in a, well, sort of free country. I’m healthy. I have a home, food, work I love, a loving supportive husband, etc. You get the idea. However, despite all of these amazing things for which I am grateful, I have been feeling really uninspired. And the part that gets me down is that I tend to make it mean that I am not good enough. That I am unworthy. If I am not creating something, or hard at work with clients or on a project, I’m not worthy.

Addressing, head on, my “not good enough” issues has been an ongoing project for years, but has been more in my face in this last year. It’s all for the good as I am really looking at it directly and learning more about myself, and ultimately all of us.

Last year I discovered that when I am earning less money, I allow it to affect my sense of self worth. What?!?! That is insane! And now, having a few uninspired days, I am feeling unworthy once again. Sheesh.

When I can get over myself for a second, I remember that we are ALL worthy, simply because we are. Because we exist. Because we are all extensions of source energy, which in my paradigm, is pure love and perfection. And by that logic, we are all perfect and our challenge in these bodies is to learn what we need to learn and slowly but surely remember who we really are.

So…if I am indeed worthy despite these feelings, how can I reframe my feelings in order to move through it with more grace and ease?

One thing I know is that I have been pretty tightly wound for my entire life. I have been nervous/sensitive to varying degrees since early childhood, despite my intact household, having friends, food, shelter, good grades, blah blah blah. Over the last year, I have been working on allowing myself to relax, which sometimes equals me watching TV all day and playing on the computer. I will check in with my guides and ask if I should be doing something else, and I usually get a thumbs up to my “lazy” behavior.

The thing is, I am slowly learning that when I allow myself to trust my body, and indulge in behavior that would terrify the go-getters among us, I feel better. Hmmm…imagine that! And when I am given the freedom to do this, I find myself more motivated at other times. The trick at these moments of motivation is to not buy into my old mindset of “now I am worthy…look how much I have accomplished”.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy. Period.

Another important thing to remember in order to maintain sanity is to NOT compare ourselves with others. When I do this, it is often a one-way ticket to Shameville, and it is bullshit! I may look at someone who sees more clients than me, writes more articles, makes more and better videos than me and makes a ton of money. But the thing is, I don’t know what her inner life is like. I don’t see her struggles, and we ALL have them! Who knows…she may look at ME and feel less than because I have love in my life and that eludes her. You just never know. And it is absolutely none of my business what anyone else is doing, unless I choose to use what I observe as inspiration for myself, or fuel for compassion and love for them.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

When this is happening, we can also look at what is triggering us. I have been a broken record lately, telling everyone and their brother that the magic of healing resides in our triggers, if only we will look at them and resolve them. I believe that when we are being triggered, it is something to look at. Something bubbling up from deep inside us, awaiting it’s clearing and healing. Triggers, as uncomfortable as they are, are truly gifts to us.

When I looked at what was triggered in me with this current round of un-inspiration, I found that I had made a “vow” to turn off/stop my “magic” at age 3. I cleared the vow and then found that a piece of my soul fragmented off due to the emotional and psychic trauma of making that promise. I reintegrated that soul fragment that contained protected energy of magic. And that’s all she wrote. (If you are wondering what I am talking about, this is the energetic work that I do),

There are a myriad of ways to clean up your triggers, and this just happens to be the way I do it! And after I clear a trigger, life gets a little (or a lot!) brighter. One less bit of energetic slime to see and experience the world through. Ahhhh.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

Another way I am able to come to terms with feeling unworthy is through artistic expression, as in writing this article. It helps me to bare my soul, to be vulnerable. I am really learning the value of vulnerability. When I can be vulnerable, and stand bravely in my tender feelings, in front of others, it magically allows for more connection.

I receive channeled messages from my dear guide/helper Lon, and sometimes these messages get downright personal. And when I put these messages out for anyone to see/hear them, I feel quite exposed and shaky. But what I have experienced from allowing myself to be seen, is that so many other people are experiencing the same thing. This allows all of us to have more compassion for each other and ourselves, and feel more connected in our human experience. It’s quite beautiful.

Well, I have to say, I feel better now! And believe it or not, I am grateful for this time of feeling uninspired and therefore unworthy as it has led me to even more healing and expansion of my spirit.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

And so are we all.

Let’s Talk About Dead People

Let’s Talk About Dead People

Whenever I am energetically checking a person, animal, office or home, one of the first things I check for is dead people.

When I say “dead people”, I am referring mainly to those souls who passed away, but still linger on this plane…they are stuck.

This is what I have learned from my personal dealings with them and helping clients with them: they tend to have died “tragically”. By this I mean they were murdered, suicides, sudden accident, traumatic illness, etc. Their vibrations tend to be very low, and as a result, many of us (who are sensitive) can “feel their stuff”.

I always use the example of who this group is NOT…they are never the kindly old grandma, who lived a long happy life, who passes gently in the night surrounded by loved ones. Those souls tend to move on to whatever our next step is. I refer to this as “moving on to the light”.

When I come across someone who has not yet moved on, I ask them if they are ready to do so. If I receive a “yes”, I ask my dead-person-go-to-guy/escort, Jesus, if he is the one to help them move on. More often than not, Jesus is the guy! On rare occasions, they want someone else.

If they are not yet ready to move on, I ask them what they need in order to be ready to “go to the light”. Often times, it is some trapped negative emotional energy they need cleared. Or perhaps some “curse” energy lifted. Sometimes they are energetically 
“corded” to someone or something or have taken a “vow” that is preventing them from leaving this plane. At times, they have something that they need to say.

Whatever their request, I help them with it until they are finally ready to move on. At that point I call on Jesus and we do our thing to help them move on. It’s actually pretty simple.

Now, this is not to be confused with a spirit who has moved on, but comes back to hang out. For example, a parent who remains with you in spirit and you can sense at times. If it is someone like this, and they spook you, or you would prefer that they show themselves in another way, just talk to them and make your request, such as “Mom…please don’t get my attention by opening and closing my cupboard doors!”

I always tell my clients that one way to determine if you have a dead person attached to you is if you feel unlike yourself or like you, but “times 1000”. For example…one day I was driving to my dentist and I was driving like a real jackass! I was weaving in and out of traffic, getting really agitated, throwing my hands up in the air to express my outrage to others. Yikes! I even said, to myself, out loud…”I am driving like a dude”.

When I got home, I expected my husband to be home and he wasn’t. I immediately started crying like a crazy person (as he is allowed to leave the house!) and then it hit me…I was not only feeling like someone else, but also feeling super emotional (I am emotional) but over the top emotional…times 1000!

I checked myself and found that I had “picked up” a dead man. I figured out what he needed and let him go. Within moments I felt fine again and my husband called from the scooter store, asking me to come join him. All was well again!

When these lower vibrational souls are in us, or in our space, they can lower our vibrations, or the vibrations of our homes and offices. When they are able to move on, the change in energy is often palpable.

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