by Colleen McCann | Energy Healing With Colleen
I AM WORTHY
I am really fortunate…don’t get me wrong, I know it. I live in a, well, sort of free country. I’m healthy. I have a home, food, work I love, a loving supportive husband, etc. You get the idea. However, despite all of these amazing things for which I am grateful, I have been feeling really uninspired. And the part that gets me down is that I tend to make it mean that I am not good enough. That I am unworthy. If I am not creating something, or hard at work with clients or on a project, I’m not worthy.
Addressing, head on, my “not good enough” issues has been an ongoing project for years, but has been more in my face in this last year. It’s all for the good as I am really looking at it directly and learning more about myself, and ultimately all of us.
Last year I discovered that when I am earning less money, I allow it to affect my sense of self worth. What?!?! That is insane! And now, having a few uninspired days, I am feeling unworthy once again. Sheesh.
When I can get over myself for a second, I remember that we are ALL worthy, simply because we are. Because we exist. Because we are all extensions of source energy, which in my paradigm, is pure love and perfection. And by that logic, we are all perfect and our challenge in these bodies is to learn what we need to learn and slowly but surely remember who we really are.
So…if I am indeed worthy despite these feelings, how can I reframe my feelings in order to move through it with more grace and ease?
One thing I know is that I have been pretty tightly wound for my entire life. I have been nervous/sensitive to varying degrees since early childhood, despite my intact household, having friends, food, shelter, good grades, blah blah blah. Over the last year, I have been working on allowing myself to relax, which sometimes equals me watching TV all day and playing on the computer. I will check in with my guides and ask if I should be doing something else, and I usually get a thumbs up to my “lazy” behavior.
The thing is, I am slowly learning that when I allow myself to trust my body, and indulge in behavior that would terrify the go-getters among us, I feel better. Hmmm…imagine that! And when I am given the freedom to do this, I find myself more motivated at other times. The trick at these moments of motivation is to not buy into my old mindset of “now I am worthy…look how much I have accomplished”.
I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy. Period.
Another important thing to remember in order to maintain sanity is to NOT compare ourselves with others. When I do this, it is often a one-way ticket to Shameville, and it is bullshit! I may look at someone who sees more clients than me, writes more articles, makes more and better videos than me and makes a ton of money. But the thing is, I don’t know what her inner life is like. I don’t see her struggles, and we ALL have them! Who knows…she may look at ME and feel less than because I have love in my life and that eludes her. You just never know. And it is absolutely none of my business what anyone else is doing, unless I choose to use what I observe as inspiration for myself, or fuel for compassion and love for them.
I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.
When this is happening, we can also look at what is triggering us. I have been a broken record lately, telling everyone and their brother that the magic of healing resides in our triggers, if only we will look at them and resolve them. I believe that when we are being triggered, it is something to look at. Something bubbling up from deep inside us, awaiting it’s clearing and healing. Triggers, as uncomfortable as they are, are truly gifts to us.
When I looked at what was triggered in me with this current round of un-inspiration, I found that I had made a “vow” to turn off/stop my “magic” at age 3. I cleared the vow and then found that a piece of my soul fragmented off due to the emotional and psychic trauma of making that promise. I reintegrated that soul fragment that contained protected energy of magic. And that’s all she wrote. (If you are wondering what I am talking about, this is the energetic work that I do),
There are a myriad of ways to clean up your triggers, and this just happens to be the way I do it! And after I clear a trigger, life gets a little (or a lot!) brighter. One less bit of energetic slime to see and experience the world through. Ahhhh.
I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.
Another way I am able to come to terms with feeling unworthy is through artistic expression, as in writing this article. It helps me to bare my soul, to be vulnerable. I am really learning the value of vulnerability. When I can be vulnerable, and stand bravely in my tender feelings, in front of others, it magically allows for more connection.
I receive channeled messages from my dear guide/helper Lon, and sometimes these messages get downright personal. And when I put these messages out for anyone to see/hear them, I feel quite exposed and shaky. But what I have experienced from allowing myself to be seen, is that so many other people are experiencing the same thing. This allows all of us to have more compassion for each other and ourselves, and feel more connected in our human experience. It’s quite beautiful.
Well, I have to say, I feel better now! And believe it or not, I am grateful for this time of feeling uninspired and therefore unworthy as it has led me to even more healing and expansion of my spirit.
I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.
And so are we all.
by Colleen McCann | Energy Healing With Colleen
Accessing the Magic
For those of you who know me, I am a huge proponent of asking for help, but probably not in the way you might be thinking. I encourage people to ask their non-physical helpers for assistance.
Whether you are aware of it or not, we are all surrounded by lovely beings in various forms who are ready, willing and able to help us. We simply need to ask.
Before I get to the “how” of it, let me tell you about my helpers. I playfully refer to them as my “A Team”. Honestly, I probably have never seen even 1 episode of this 80’s “classic”, but I pity the fool who doesn’t take advantage of the magic of his or her own A Team!
Let me just say, I don’t see my helpers visually. Sometimes I feel them and sometimes I get messages from them. It’s funny, but as I write this, I keep getting the signal from one of my main helpers, Lon, that he wants to be a part of this article. The way he signals me is by making my right eye twitch and man, has my eye been twitching in the last few minutes!
I will go into more detail about this later, but for now, just know that Lon is an ET. I get that he is a tall grey and lives somewhere around Orion. I don’t study ET stuff, but I have heard some people refer, across the board, to greys as bad. This is not the case with Lon. To me, that is like saying that all Americans are rude. We are not all the same.
When Lon first appeared in my work sessions with clients, it was clear that he was with 2 others…another male and a female. I lovingly refer to them as “the gang”. After some time, and a huge amount of disbelief (I wasn’t looking to connect with ETs), I asked if I could assign them each a name, just for the sake of ease of identification. They agreed. I originally called them Fred, Susie and Terry, but over the next year or so, they each revealed their names: Lon, Star and Hall. They are light workers and are here for our highest good. They have been lovely and so helpful on so many occasions. At times they have requested my assistance as well. At this point, I consider them part of my family.
I also have other ET helpers, mostly from Arcturus, but also some Pleiadian and Andromedan. Jesus and Buddha are big helpers as well. I also receive guidance form a Native American gentleman from the 1800’s and a council of elders who step in on occasion, among others. These are the beings who have made themselves known to me, but I am sure that there are many others helping out as well. And to be clear: you do not have to have a formal introduction in order to ask your team for assistance!
Here is my take on this subject: We, on this planet, are here to experience free will. The angels and other helpers are not supposed to override this and are waiting for us to, in essence, “sign their permission slip” to assist us.
Anyway…this is how I instruct my clients to ask their team for help.
1) Ask for what you want. I believe that there is magic in saying it out loud. And don’t censor yourself…ask for what you really want. Don’t decide that you can’t ask for something because it “isn’t spiritual enough” or not lofty enough. Let your helpers determine if what you are requesting is for your highest good and worthy of their energy! And consider this. If your helpers are higher vibrational, multi-dimensional, more enlightened beings than ourselves, then they are going to see what is possible for us from a much broader perspective than most of us can with our human blinders on! So, even if you can’t determine HOW they could make it happen, don’t worry about it.
2) Know that you have been heard. This was the biggest challenge for me when I started playing with this idea, but once I got it, I really got it.
What I have found is that, for me, sometimes I have to learn things in a big, bold, in-my-face way in order to really get it. So, one day, I was driving down my street and honestly, I don’t remember any details, but it was like a bolt of lightening struck me (figuratively, of course!) and I burst into tears and just KNEW in no uncertain terms, that I am always heard. It was profound for me. And the Universe never misses an opportunity to give a lovely signal or “wink” at these times. When I got home a few minutes later, I received a letter from my bank (with whom I had been fighting regarding my student loan payment amount) stating that I was to pay NOTHING for another year. I had been asking my helpers to assist me with this for quite a while and now here was my evidence. It felt like nothing short of pure magic. So, if you can, make it easy on yourself and just KNOW that you are being heard!
And finally,
3) Let go of the outcome. Don’t be attached to how you think it is “supposed” to look or when it “should” happen. This too can be a challenge, but do your best! With my student loan drama, I truly believed that I should be paying about $400 per month and would have been happy with that. Imagine my glee when my letter stated, “zero”. The moral of this story is, be open to the outcome being even better than what you asked for!
As I mentioned earlier, my helper Lon, was trying to get my attention as he very much wants to be part of these articles. This is what he has for anyone reading this.
He offers any of you to call on him specifically for assistance. I highly recommend it because he is amazing. I consider this to be a very generous offer!
Also, we have infused this article with the following:
- Energy to help you find your community
- Energy to help facilitate further spiritual expansion
- Energy to help raise your vibration
- Energy of magic…my favorite!
- Healing energy for anyone in need of it.
We are in a very powerful time of change and the more you can energetically keep up with it, the easier and more magical it will be!
Have fun with this and see what “magic” you can access by simply asking for help!
Until next time!
Dr. Colleen
