I am really fortunate…don’t get me wrong, I know it. I live in a, well, sort of free country. I’m healthy. I have a home, food, work I love, a loving supportive husband, etc. You get the idea. However, despite all of these amazing things for which I am grateful, I have been feeling really uninspired. And the part that gets me down is that I tend to make it mean that I am not good enough. That I am unworthy. If I am not creating something, or hard at work with clients or on a project, I’m not worthy.

Addressing, head on, my “not good enough” issues has been an ongoing project for years, but has been more in my face in this last year. It’s all for the good as I am really looking at it directly and learning more about myself, and ultimately all of us.

Last year I discovered that when I am earning less money, I allow it to affect my sense of self worth. What?!?! That is insane! And now, having a few uninspired days, I am feeling unworthy once again. Sheesh.

When I can get over myself for a second, I remember that we are ALL worthy, simply because we are. Because we exist. Because we are all extensions of source energy, which in my paradigm, is pure love and perfection. And by that logic, we are all perfect and our challenge in these bodies is to learn what we need to learn and slowly but surely remember who we really are.

So…if I am indeed worthy despite these feelings, how can I reframe my feelings in order to move through it with more grace and ease?

One thing I know is that I have been pretty tightly wound for my entire life. I have been nervous/sensitive to varying degrees since early childhood, despite my intact household, having friends, food, shelter, good grades, blah blah blah. Over the last year, I have been working on allowing myself to relax, which sometimes equals me watching TV all day and playing on the computer. I will check in with my guides and ask if I should be doing something else, and I usually get a thumbs up to my “lazy” behavior.

The thing is, I am slowly learning that when I allow myself to trust my body, and indulge in behavior that would terrify the go-getters among us, I feel better. Hmmm…imagine that! And when I am given the freedom to do this, I find myself more motivated at other times. The trick at these moments of motivation is to not buy into my old mindset of “now I am worthy…look how much I have accomplished”.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy. Period.

Another important thing to remember in order to maintain sanity is to NOT compare ourselves with others. When I do this, it is often a one-way ticket to Shameville, and it is bullshit! I may look at someone who sees more clients than me, writes more articles, makes more and better videos than me and makes a ton of money. But the thing is, I don’t know what her inner life is like. I don’t see her struggles, and we ALL have them! Who knows…she may look at ME and feel less than because I have love in my life and that eludes her. You just never know. And it is absolutely none of my business what anyone else is doing, unless I choose to use what I observe as inspiration for myself, or fuel for compassion and love for them.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

When this is happening, we can also look at what is triggering us. I have been a broken record lately, telling everyone and their brother that the magic of healing resides in our triggers, if only we will look at them and resolve them. I believe that when we are being triggered, it is something to look at. Something bubbling up from deep inside us, awaiting it’s clearing and healing. Triggers, as uncomfortable as they are, are truly gifts to us.

When I looked at what was triggered in me with this current round of un-inspiration, I found that I had made a “vow” to turn off/stop my “magic” at age 3. I cleared the vow and then found that a piece of my soul fragmented off due to the emotional and psychic trauma of making that promise. I reintegrated that soul fragment that contained protected energy of magic. And that’s all she wrote. (If you are wondering what I am talking about, this is the energetic work that I do),

There are a myriad of ways to clean up your triggers, and this just happens to be the way I do it! And after I clear a trigger, life gets a little (or a lot!) brighter. One less bit of energetic slime to see and experience the world through. Ahhhh.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

Another way I am able to come to terms with feeling unworthy is through artistic expression, as in writing this article. It helps me to bare my soul, to be vulnerable. I am really learning the value of vulnerability. When I can be vulnerable, and stand bravely in my tender feelings, in front of others, it magically allows for more connection.

I receive channeled messages from my dear guide/helper Lon, and sometimes these messages get downright personal. And when I put these messages out for anyone to see/hear them, I feel quite exposed and shaky. But what I have experienced from allowing myself to be seen, is that so many other people are experiencing the same thing. This allows all of us to have more compassion for each other and ourselves, and feel more connected in our human experience. It’s quite beautiful.

Well, I have to say, I feel better now! And believe it or not, I am grateful for this time of feeling uninspired and therefore unworthy as it has led me to even more healing and expansion of my spirit.

I am worthy because I am. Because I exist. Because I am an extension of Source energy.

And so are we all.

Let’s Talk About Dead People

Let’s Talk About Dead People

Whenever I am energetically checking a person, animal, office or home, one of the first things I check for is dead people.

When I say “dead people”, I am referring mainly to those souls who passed away, but still linger on this plane…they are stuck.

This is what I have learned from my personal dealings with them and helping clients with them: they tend to have died “tragically”. By this I mean they were murdered, suicides, sudden accident, traumatic illness, etc. Their vibrations tend to be very low, and as a result, many of us (who are sensitive) can “feel their stuff”.

I always use the example of who this group is NOT…they are never the kindly old grandma, who lived a long happy life, who passes gently in the night surrounded by loved ones. Those souls tend to move on to whatever our next step is. I refer to this as “moving on to the light”.

When I come across someone who has not yet moved on, I ask them if they are ready to do so. If I receive a “yes”, I ask my dead-person-go-to-guy/escort, Jesus, if he is the one to help them move on. More often than not, Jesus is the guy! On rare occasions, they want someone else.

If they are not yet ready to move on, I ask them what they need in order to be ready to “go to the light”. Often times, it is some trapped negative emotional energy they need cleared. Or perhaps some “curse” energy lifted. Sometimes they are energetically 
“corded” to someone or something or have taken a “vow” that is preventing them from leaving this plane. At times, they have something that they need to say.

Whatever their request, I help them with it until they are finally ready to move on. At that point I call on Jesus and we do our thing to help them move on. It’s actually pretty simple.

Now, this is not to be confused with a spirit who has moved on, but comes back to hang out. For example, a parent who remains with you in spirit and you can sense at times. If it is someone like this, and they spook you, or you would prefer that they show themselves in another way, just talk to them and make your request, such as “Mom…please don’t get my attention by opening and closing my cupboard doors!”

I always tell my clients that one way to determine if you have a dead person attached to you is if you feel unlike yourself or like you, but “times 1000”. For example…one day I was driving to my dentist and I was driving like a real jackass! I was weaving in and out of traffic, getting really agitated, throwing my hands up in the air to express my outrage to others. Yikes! I even said, to myself, out loud…”I am driving like a dude”.

When I got home, I expected my husband to be home and he wasn’t. I immediately started crying like a crazy person (as he is allowed to leave the house!) and then it hit me…I was not only feeling like someone else, but also feeling super emotional (I am emotional) but over the top emotional…times 1000!

I checked myself and found that I had “picked up” a dead man. I figured out what he needed and let him go. Within moments I felt fine again and my husband called from the scooter store, asking me to come join him. All was well again!

When these lower vibrational souls are in us, or in our space, they can lower our vibrations, or the vibrations of our homes and offices. When they are able to move on, the change in energy is often palpable.

If you feel that this is happening for you, feel free to check out my “services” on my website at www.energyhealingwithcolleen.com.

Also, if you have questions, please go to the “contact” section on my site and send me a message!

Relationship Feng Shui

Relationship Feng Shui

Alternate title…Know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em.

Man…I feel like I am in that uncomfortable, yet valuable and necessary location called “Lesson City”! Lesson City is located between and Discomfort Junction and Relief Town. The trick here is to be willing to heed the lessons, learn from them and move on more powerfully than before.

With the work that I do, and becoming more and more energetically sensitive, I find myself fine tuning all the time, and lately this has resulted in situations where I have to re-evaluate relationships that have been dragging me down.

Historically, I, like many of us, have found it “easier” to keep trudging along, tolerating people who I have either outgrown, or that I have allowed to treat me in ways that are unacceptable. And the longer I accept this behavior, the more difficult it is to rectify it without drama. Ugh.

So, my question is…how do we nip this stuff in the bud? Or…what is the best way to let someone go?

First, we need to determine if the relationship is salvagable…is there enough good there to make confronting the icky stuff worth it?

What I have found just recently is that when I tried to have some clear, honest communication with a person that I was having this issue with, it was immediately taken by her as hurt, and insult and betrayal. And I hadn’t even brought up the issue yet. I just asked if we could talk about something!

The good news in this scenario is that her reaction gave me even more clarity about whether I wanted our relationship to continue or not…and I choose NOT.

In the last several years, I have become very choosy about with whom I spend my time. And as a result, I have had to let some people go, some of which are very old friends. Some friends and I call it “contract over”. I do not believe that we need to hold onto every person that we have ever met in our lives. We are continuously growing (hopefully!) and changing. The people who cannot grow and change, whose stories are the same, year after year, without any attempt to remedy it or get to the heart of the problem, are people that I can’t afford to spend time and energy with.

I believe that this all boils down to self love and a feeling of worthiness. And the more that I love myself and know that I am worthy of feeling good, the more I am able to let go of what is no longer working for me. Knowing that when I am taking care of myself first, I am in a much stronger and powerful position to help others do the same.

Admittedly, I have not yet perfected my “dismount” from these relationships, but I am working on it and learning as much as I can with each release so that the next one can be smoother and less stressful. And I would imagine that there will always be an inherent discomfort and sometimes sadness in doing this. However, the question is…which is worse in the long run…maintaining the relationship with all of the energetic crap it holds, or to rip off the band aid and deal with some temporary discomfort to get eventual relief?

This certainly takes some energy to be willing to confront this, but believe me, it is worth it in the long run. And, by doing this, it makes you really appreciate those in your life who you value and who value you.